i just hope all the late night pays off

something good has comes out of this

it has to.

perhaps mine planning ahead is doing more harm than good 

i shouldnt be thinking and worrying and leave it up to fate

afterall i always tell my kids

slowly, be patient ... time will see that your hard work pay off

at that age, yes

but as you grow older time doesnt go your way

and as much as we want things to go our way

we also have to expect that it often doesnt

I NEED TO SCREAM!

and i want to see those happy pills tmr

but appt clash 

and unfortunately only they can make my gloomy thurs bright:(