Saturday, March 29, 2008

business is just an excuse

an excuse for not doing what we really want to do
an excuse for not meeting up with friends
an excuse for not spending more time with precious ones
an excuse for 'i-dont-know-i-cant-really-think-of-any'

cause i realised that despite having so many things going on in my life concurrently
everything falls in place nicely
except that that i often forget to put in meal breaks
which isnt a very good thing, you know why

its like, if you really want to get things done
you will find time for it no matter how busy you are
of course, it cant be helped that timings do clash sometimes
other than that we'll achieve nighty percent of what we want

april's almost here
nearing three months of this full fledge break
its certainly packed with stuff
tired i may be sometimes
but im totally enjoying myself
be it work or other activities

relief teaching
two tuition kids
admin work at tuition centre
volunteer weekly
driving lessons
viola lessons
piano lessons
and alumni prac which ended with a concert in march hols

fulfilling indeed!
i just got to be thankful for all this

perhaps its my way of escaping all those fretting

business is not the word

Wednesday, March 26, 2008








i just hope all the late night pays off
something good has comes out of this
it has to.

perhaps mine planning ahead is doing more harm than good 
i shouldnt be thinking and worrying and leave it up to fate
afterall i always tell my kids
slowly, be patient ... time will see that your hard work pay off

at that age, yes
but as you grow older time doesnt go your way
and as much as we want things to go our way
we also have to expect that it often doesnt

I NEED TO SCREAM!
and i want to see those happy pills tmr
but appt clash 
and unfortunately only they can make my gloomy thurs bright:(

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

an observation of mine
most people around me are in a desperate bid to get in a relationship

in my very opinion
getting into a relationship isnt the toughest thing
what most difficult is resisting to get into one

it isnt that difficult to get into one
tempting it may be
even when we tell ourselves that our min. requirement is this and this
but at the end of the day
our heart soften when one goes out of the way
or simply, gives more attention
cause affection and acknowledgement and acceptance are what humans crave for
not just in a relationship
but also friendship or in a classroom or in our workplace

why dont we look out into the world
not just the people around us
but beyond that
the people in our society

instead of being on the receiving end
we have so much within us to offer
and when we give selflessly 
we'll actually receive much more, trust me
cause just a slight nod or a smile
can tug your heartstrings

and as i was planning my schedule for next week
i realised that most of my time are spent 
with those that i have known for a few months
its time for more meet up
lunch shopping and dinner dates
ive been neglecting them


its the things in common that make relationships enjoyable
but the little differences that makes it interesting

Monday, March 24, 2008

GOSH...my days are packed

with stuff going on back to back
and im trying to squeeze a little time for everything
at the same time doing my best to have quality time
and not rush through them

im trying hard to convince myself that im not busy
although failing quite badly
afterall its all up to the mind
how busy one is
its about planning my time well
and enjoying every moment of business

it cant be helped
cause i was suppose to be free
but all these activities are not mandatory
and besides i enjoy them

i've planned a whole list of people to meet up with
people that i should have met since the start of jc life
but somehow along the way
didnt really got down to it
a whole list of places to visit 
and i barely strike off half the list
besides that, i havent been spending much 'me' time
except that i last remembered i had been watching movies 
for a consecutive no. of 
but somehow im crowded with stuff to be able to do that

quite disjointed post
but ah...rushing around makes me feel like that all the time

exciting stuff this week:))



ironically, i never felt this free before
free as in busy/free  and  freedom/free

Thursday, March 20, 2008

im near burnt out
something which is not suppose to happen 
since its supposed to be a break i promised myself
:(

why cant i go back on promises
why did i promise so much in the first place
why did i even entertain the thought of letting others down
why didnt i think about myself first?
why am i so upset with myself in the first place

i didnt realised i was upset till someone told me right in my face
'why do you look so unhappy today, tired ah?'
i wanted to cry there and then
but as usual, the kids did wonders:)

yes, i wanted it so badly
cant i just have it

on a happier note
this girls did managed to lift my mood little too

Wednesday, March 19, 2008










happy birthday sweeet!
love from spore to indo then to macau:)

Thursday, March 13, 2008

my girl showed me her whole collection of stickers
and even giving some to me
i told you 
she knows i love them:)

now, talk about me and stickers
HAHA

Sunday, March 9, 2008













why the reluctance
what's stopping me?
i've been sure of what i want
except this
urgh!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

it wasnt great results
but im just thankful for it
for it could have been worse

i was neutral, neither feeling hapy nor sad
but more worried about those who had not done as they had expected

i dont know 
i just hate this thing about others being upset
and i cant bear to see them cry or hold back their tears 
it hurts

thanks for telling me that i should be happy instead of just neutral,
for lifting my mood cause i really would have started tearing then

and everyone else who was genuinely concerned:)


it feels like a great load off
it never felt this good
that this phase of life have ended

ps. do let me know if you know anyone who teaches viola