a mid sem test up this week,

a birthday lunch tmr

and all i want is some peace today to get more work done

but no, music blasting since eleven am

and the party is not going to stop till at least midnight

the library is close for the day

and great, im here!

i've decided to return here again

just cause i wouldnt want to look back

and see its all a blur

heh, anyway the thoughts had been in my head since god-knows-when

pardon me if its mostly emo posts

but this is just an outlet

i seldom share my thoughts with anyone here

cause this would increase their burden

not those back home

cause its an additional worry for them,

plus they might not truly understand the feelings

(i perfectly understand the feeling of wanting to help

but distance made it a hindrance)

im doing well, being miss independent,

and well, like what i told someone before i left,

living life just for myself!

but its taking on another level,

not exactly the way i want to actually,

cause besides living for yourself,

you need to care for people around you too,

but the people around me arent exactly the people i want to care for

past disappointment i should forget,

but no, i cant

and only when i can, i would then be able to genuinely care for them

meanwhile, im missing miss indo,

seems like an eternity since i last spoken to you.