many a times, i wish there was someone here i could relate to

supressing everything within me wont be doing myself any good

it was only when i was back home

showing my dad all the pics i had taken

that it suddenly dawn on me that,

isnt it wonderful to have someone to share life's journey with you

i then understood why my dad always tells me

"you should see this!" whenever he's overseas for travel

the other time was when i was running the 14 km city to surf

taking in the amazing view,

enjoying the experience,

to be able to share the feeling of running without any beads of perspiration

(haha yes, it evaporated into salt and you could literally feel it)

strangers encouraging you along the way

and all the interesting sightings

i never it felt it before,

but i was surrounded by so many people,

how could i feel so alone

when i came here

i had this fear that i would be so comfortable being alone

that i wouldnt want to mingle around with others anymore

i guess it was made worse when i told myself

that i had the right to choose my friends

i wouldnt make friends for the sake of making friends

but instead only those that i can trust

really good ones

what was i afraid of then?

being taken advantage of, being hurt?

i guess i miss my friends back home

not that i regret it, i made some really good ones,

but i really couldnt bother to do small chats here and there now

gone is the friendly self and definately a higher expectation of people around me

to be able to witness something wonderful yourself,

wont feel as good as being able to share it with someone you love,

and im glad i still have a tight few whom i can rely on here