i've never been that afraid

the fateful day fast approaching

how ironic that everyone around me

has so much faith in me

(for that i thank every single one of you for being my morale booster

but it didnt help much still)

wheras i do not have faith in myself at all

not a single bit

i wonder why they thought so highly of me

asking me to go to a certain uni,

go for scholarships, and what nots

im not pressured into living up to their expectation

because i really dont know what to expect at all,

how it will all turn out 

and besides i know they genuinely care

and im grateful to have them

shut my eyes and i have nightmares

awake and i fear

i wonder how i will survive the week

terribly afraid:(