Wednesday, September 10, 2008

unnecessary pressure on myself
until everything was over
then i see light
cause others had such confident in me
which i didnt have in myself
and this cycle repeats over and over again
when sometimes i fall
but im glad i got through it today

i totally hate that feeling
the sense of fear i never once had
but only get worse each time now
the fear of not meeting my own expectation

i wonder how will i be able to survive 
through all those

Monday, September 8, 2008

im so moody and drained these days
i flare up at both my kids
much to both their surprise
cause they didnt believe i would get angry

its time to take a breather
and have something to look forward to:|

Monday, September 1, 2008

my memory is failing me so bad
that i realised im suppose to be at two places at the same time
both important and im feeling so guilty
i just want to hide under my sheets and never wake up

and life is moving so fast
that im not in the right mental frame to take my driving test
ive become so impatient
and everything just have to be fastfastfast
but other than the fact that i dont have the time to think so much
ive not begun to fret about it

i better slow things down
(which i know will never happen though)
cause i never felt so guilty using the word busy as an excuse
its an excuse, not a reason.